inside the mind of a sick and demented soul...(bata pa po ako!!)

elow, just wanna introduce myself again...hehe...
since im no longer an admin here...cant make changes,so i'l just post this topic here...
this is my home...you can find everything that you want to know about me here...hehe...
ive been asking my bro. if he could make a section where we could write blogs and like diaries...
online diaries that is...hehe...

well just to start, im louie again...i was ask by my bro to join here...im a member of another forum...hehe..might as well try this out...hehe...

im working...obviously same job as urs...hehe..
im a psychology student before...(di na ngaun)
hehehe...im from bacolod, im 20 turning 21...hahaha...im a bachelorette...hahaha...
joke!!...well, thats it for now... TA TA... CIAO!!!

your idea is somehow brilliant
at least, for those who love to write or compose something, at least we have an online diary

yeah...and thanx for dropping by my home...hehehe

feel free to come back...hehe

hHHAHAHAH... ah ic....
kaya pala Bata iya name.. coz bata pa talaga cya.. hehehehe jowk!!! peace

nice suggestion.. pra ba ung online blog?

bata: sureness, i will always pay a visit to this post...hehehe

simply: yes, online blog

bata pa tlaga cya.. kaya nman pla.. hehe

nice idea..

hehe....thanx....feel free to post...hehehe

cant understand my life...yesterday, i was so happy being with her,now....i dont know...just cant find any topic to talk about...it seems like she's a total stranger to me...

sinundo ko sya sa skul...we went out...we talked...i went home...yun lng...pero bakit before naeenjoy namin kahit ganun lang?ngaun?parang walang mapag usapan...

uu,mahal ko sya...mahal na mahal...as in...pero bakit minsan di ko maramdaman?may time lang ba yan?

she loves me...i can feel it...and she's showing it naman...she's the only girl that i havent kissed...but then,di ko hinahanap yun...happy na ako pag kasama ko sya before...pero ngaun,parang may oras na hindi...parang may kulang talaga...

problema ngaun at may nakasingit pa...friend din namin...
i dont know if i love her...but happy ako pag kasama ko sya...we talked on almost about anything...masaya...
but i dont know if i love her...

hehehe...gulo ko ngang kausap eh...hehehe... update ko nalang ulit to...hehehe...

end shift na...wala pa ring magawa...she's still awake...hehehe...
pinapa2log ko na nga eh...ayaw pa rin..hmmmm..
baka lumaki na eye bags nun...hehehe...

6:12am na...hehehe....im eating pancit canton.. extra hot!!!pampainit ng tyan...hahaha...she's drinking coffe daw...im planning to go to her haus after this, magdala daw ako ng puto...hehehe...ano ba yan, napag utosan pa...hehehe...

i really missed her, thats y pupunta ako dun...hehehe..
bakit kaya,magkasama lang kmi kanina tsaka hinatid ko naman pauwi...hehehe...

the thing is, i miss her...i miss her hugs...tpos kanina sa skul,when she hugged me...haaaayyy...wala lang...i didnt smyl..my lips did not move...but my heart did..hehehe...
its like it was the 1st tym that she hugged me...yung bang prang happy tlaga ako...pero di ko naman makuhang 2mawa...hehehe..

sorry for the late posts...i just edited it today...but those were written by me last nyt...hehehe...cant write eh...my supervisor is around...cant open any windows...hehehe


il just update you guys....hehehehe

bata, hope you dont mind noh

im gonna respond with a question

is it really love that you feel for the person but then you're not happy at all???

yeah nice to know you bata!
online blogs? that's cool...


abah getch ha? parang tumatagos sa kaluluwa yang tanong mo ha?

rakizta wrote:

bata, hope you dont mind noh

im gonna response with a question

is it really love that you feel for the person but then you're not happy at all???

hmmmm...well, if your asking me in the context of love....i do love her...
if its the matter of contentment...well, i guess im not sure what to say...maybe its just to early to be serious on things...heheheh...
cant answer u in a specific way...general ko nalng ha...hehehe

hahahah...anyways....i wrote this bcoz i was hoping to know sum1 whos the same page as me..hehe
the main rison im here is that i want to know myself...trying to find sum1 to talk to talk to/with...heheh
ang open minded lang....

4pm....usual day...wlang magawa...laro lang ng dota....and then...

totot totot...uy may txt..cno kaya to....

the girl: y are you doing this to me...ive done everything for you to love me back...manhid ka??
bata: ha??ano??i cant understand you....
the girl: cant you see...i still love you...di kita pinapansin pra pansinin mo ako...manhid ka gid ya...(manhid ka talaga)
bata: i thot u told me that your more than ok...ano problema?
the girl: problema ko ikaw...ano ka?
bata: i explained everything...are you not listening?you told me ur ok...you should've told me right there and then..not like this...

2hours....silence

the girl: i hate you......
bata:...............silence........
the girl: hey....
bata: silence still...

so opis....


bata: oi....
the girl's friend: oi...ginpahibi mo namn frnd ko haw?--(bakit mo nanaman pinaiyak kaibigan ko)
bata: ha?i dont know...i did not do anything...

ganyan na lang palagi...wat should i do guys...im being cornered..huhuhu...

(SMILE WHEN YOU ANSWER THE PHONE)

Thank you for calling CRN, my name is Louie and for quality purposes this call is being recorded...And your first name ---Spell that

Specific Property
First Month's Mortgage


haaayyy....same old same old....

still scripted...what can i do??how can i change things my way?
para akong isang pelikula...derik...ano bang susunod sa buhay ko??

it seems like i cant deviate from wat was intended...pag limihis ako..may masamang mangyayari..ano to matrix??saan ang engineer ko??

am i just paranoid...??haaay....what will i do with her?what about the other her?

im on my way home na...hmmmm...
nakasakay lang sa tricycle...hihihi...poor lang po kmi...

and then we happen to pass by a crazy man.."buang"...heheh...
i dont know but he caught my attention...

he was smilling...as in really hard...and then he was looking at sumthing which is not there...
it made me wonder....galing ah..nakuha nya pang tumawa...
wat if i was in his shoes...could i still manage to smyl?
nung pauwi ksi ako medyo nakasimangot eh....
and then...narealize ko...bakit kaya ako ganito??parang walang satisfaction...
when i get wat i want, i would still want more...GREED kumbaga....
mas mabuti pa ang baliw na to, nakuha pang 2mawa sa sitwasyon nya...bakit kaya??
is it bcoz he's satisfied na kng ano meron sya?..is it the only thing that would make us smile?
bakit ako??nakukuha ko nman minsan ang gus2 ko, bakit nakasimangot pa rin ako?
bakit di ko makuhang 2mawa sa ibang bagay na pinagtatawanan nila?

yes...i eat 3x a day but still, not satisfied...and look at that crazy man!!
probably he hasnt eaten all day...but why is he smyling?
is it bcoz his crazy? or his just happy becoz he found satisfaction out of sumthing that wasnt even there?
yun lang ba kailangan ko??

lack of contentment?

of

you haven't found yet, you haven't discover yet the very thing that would make you be contented with your life...

hmmmmmmm...maybe...or maybe not..it seems like i cant deviate from wat i was intended...pag limihis ako..may masamang mangyayari.....basta...hihihi...

il just post more updates for this...heheheh

i can sense complications sa mga sinishare mo...

ang hirap nga talagang intindihin ung mga nangyayari...

rakizta wrote:

i can sense complications sa mga sinishare mo...

ang hirap nga talagang intindihin ung mga nangyayari...

complications??in what way??hehehe....

shift ko na later...hehehe

complications...sa situation mo with your girl...ang hirap...matanong nga, di mo kc nabanggit ko ano yung status ng girl sa buhay mo...ang sinabi mo lang kc "the girl"...so ano cya sau?

tsaka complications on how to be contented with life, with what you have, with what you have achieved...

may sense ba?

rakizta wrote:

complications...sa situation mo with your girl...ang hirap...matanong nga, di mo kc nabanggit ko ano yung status ng girl sa buhay mo...ang sinabi mo lang kc "the girl"...so ano cya sau?

tsaka complications on how to be contented with life, with what you have, with what you have achieved...

may sense ba?

hmmmmm...aboout sa girl??ang girl saan?hehe...
well, theres an ex and a gf sa story...are u pertaining to both when u asked that question or sa isang tao lang?

about sa totot-totot txt..tungkol sa ex ko yun...hehehe..

ang may thank you for calling CRN...i was pertaining to my gf..hehehe....and the other friend hu just came along...basta...hehehe

clarify ko lang ha...

may gf ka ngaun? tapos ung ex mo may gusto pa sau tapos ngaun naman your beginning to like your other friend na friend rin ng girlfriend mo

ang about sa contentment...hmmmm..
why did i ever wrote about that...hehehe...
its just that im happy but im not....hehehe...
hmmmm...how should i put it?hehehe...
well sa life xempre im not contented coz i havent proven anything yet...i know i can do more...
i have no achievements...nothing to brag about...hehehe.. pero sa lovelife cguro meron ng konti...hihihi
well, im happy..i know i am..hehehe..its not just my lips that smiles...my heart giggles...nyeeeee...
CORNY!!!...hehehe...no really, im happy...hehehe

rakizta wrote:

clarify ko lang ha...

may gf ka ngaun? tapos ung ex mo may gusto pa sau tapos ngaun naman your beginning to like your other friend na friend rin ng girlfriend mo

not actualy nagkakagus2..hehehe...basta!!

still awake..its 10:45am to be exact..hehehe..
ang sakit ng mata ko...hahaha...laro lang ng computer...
walang calls eh...heheh..hmmmm....my gf is still awake...
samahan nya daw ako...hehehe...SSWWWEEEEEETTT!!!!!
hehehe...she's still txting me oh....

i love you lang lahat...hehehe...tweet tweet...
she's making a letter daw..pra wag antukin...hehehe...
bigla ko syang na miss...huhuhu...i want to be next to her right now....want to hug her tight...haaaayy....
i love her...i do...hehehe...baka nga cguro nasayahan lang ako dun sa newly found friend NAMIN...hehehe...

do i need to tell her what i felt sa friend namin?eh parang ano lang naman yun eh...no need na cguro noh?hehehe
i'l just tell her that i missed her smile...yun lang namn ang nagpapasaya sakin eh...tsaka yung time nya...
kaya cguro bumabawi ngaun at di pa natutulog...hehehe...

actualy sinundo ko sya sa skul kanina SA kasi sya sa skul, Students assistance program sa skul namin...hehehe...nagulat nga dahil di ako nagtxt na andun ako...paglabas nya...wala nang sinabi nag hug na lang...kaya napahug na rin ako...hehehe...
haaaaaaayyyy.....i do love her..i really do..hmmmmmm...
i do....i do....i do....hehe....

now my ex's bestfriend is txting me...she just got back from the states...kilala ko rin xa coz naging frnd ko rin nga..she's asking me for a lot of stuff...
bakit daw kmi naghiwalay...bakit ko daw sinaktan at pinaiyak?....walag katapusang tanong...

hey!! ive xplained my part na...do i have to xplain to her?...she wants to meet me...she wants to talk daw...do i have to?...

kasi nga naman di pa rin kmi nag uusap ng ex ko...tpos,ayon prang masakit pa rin...but when i txted her, she replied naman...she's more than ok na daw...haayy...hirap ng mga babae...

back to basics again..

2 months na kami...parang kailan lng...hehehe
i dont know, but we kinda clicked...hmmmmm...medyo rough start nga lang... (dahil nga dun sa mga problems from the last relationship)

but im sure glad i made that choice....although i doubted din, kasi nga may dumating...pero we fixed it....nope!! SHE fixed it...hehehe...she made me realize what i will lose if magpapakagago pa ako...hehehe...
wala lang....ive written songs for her....di ko nga alam pero prang bumalik ako sa hyskul ah...hehehe....

anyways...dito na lang muna...hehehe.....back to work!!!

bata, questions.. complicated kac.. ang gulo.. hehe

nka move on kna ba tlga?
do u really love ur gf now?
kung love mo cya, bat parang d ka kuntento?
bat parang happy ka na hindi?
i can understand na ang tao tlaga insatiable, pro pag love mo ang tao, dba dapat my contentment?

psychedelic wrote:

bata, questions.. complicated kac.. ang gulo.. hehe

nka move on kna ba tlga?
do u really love ur gf now?
kung love mo cya, bat parang d ka kuntento?
bat parang happy ka na hindi?
i can understand na ang tao tlaga insatiable, pro pag love mo ang tao, dba dapat my contentment?

hmmmmm....just refer to the post above...maybe that could answer some of your questions...hehehe
if not...u can ask me again...be specific lang...
thanx for dropping by may...hehehehe
be back SOON!!!

ung tungkol sa friend nu ng gf mo, for me, ok lang naman sabihin siguro na you like your friend the way she is as long as wala lang ibang meaning ung pagkakagusto mo sa kanya

yeah...i know....thanx sa comment....hehehe

and ung tungkol sa ex mo, wala kaung maaus na closure?

meron naman...i dont know whats happening...and why is it happening...

bad ending ba ung relationship nu?

hmmmmmm...i cant say that bad ending..its just the situation that makes it bad...
ang about sa ex ko...xa din yung sa "girls,stuid???" ko na topic...

ahhh...

pacncya na po kung may comment ako na stupid ung girl...

its ok...the girls that i was refering der were her friends...hehehe...

ung situation din naman tinutukoy ko po
hehehe

i know....hehehe

parang telenovela ang dating ng love story mo ha

hahaha....may ganung effect??hahaha

my gf and i went out just this sat...hehehe...
wala lang,coz i was planning to buy something...
we went to sm, ate dinner 1st and went to national bookstore to buy a book...
swerte ko talaga at andun din ang ex ko...
hmmmmmmm...at whole family pa nya...hehehe...
"aike" was there...sis kasi sya ng ex ko...
hehehe...haaayyzzz....
i was like walking in the air when i saw them...
i cant turn back coz andun na nga cla sa front namin...ayun, dumaan kmi sa mismong harap nila...
wala na akong nagawa...i said hi to her mom and walked on...i dont have the guts to look at her or to even say hi...hahaha...wala na talaga...

tpos, ito nmang c aike ngtxt agad...hahaha...
haayyyzzz....i dont know if kakausapin pa ako nun...

tpos may nangyari pa....

2nd tym na nangyari sakin to...hehehe
the 1st one was with the latest ex...the one na ofismate ko...heheh...sweldo yun eh...so i was expecting na na magshoshoping cla..hehehe..
i thot sa sm cla, so i decided sa robinsons nalang kmi..ayyy! ang galing talaga maglaro ng kapalaran...hehe...sa exit na nga kmi dumaan pra safe...naka holdhands pa kmi...uY..!! andun din cla kasama ang mga friends nya na ofismate ko rin... at sa exit din dumaan...so wlang magawa at nagkasalubong nga...hahaha...
hi lang sa mga ofismate, tpos c ex nag iba ng daan pero naka smile...hahaha...napa smile na rin ako... cnabi ko rin sa gf ko na ex ko yung nakasalubong namin...hehehe...
wala lang....tawa lang kmi...hehehe!!!!

hoy bata ka! wal mo ko gin sapak sa sm! waah!!!!!! suya ko! may upod klng na chick! hmmpwaaah! ka aircon na sa sm but cold sweat kagid ky mama non! unbelievable! heheh! hoy! louie mar nicor..HUWAG MU NAMAN ULITIN YUN! you look funny! hahah (^_^)

aike wrote:

hoy bata ka! wal mo ko gin sapak sa sm! waah!!!!!! suya ko! may upod klng na chick! hmmpwaaah! ka aircon na sa sm but cold sweat kagid ky mama non! unbelievable! heheh! hoy! louie mar nicor..HUWAG MU NAMAN ULITIN YUN! you look funny! hahah (^_^)

hahaha...like i said, i dont know what to do na...
hahaha...i just laughed at myself after that...what did she say??i know she's mad...hehehe...dont know if i can still txt her...hehehe....

wooohh....gin tawag taka! wla kagid nag balikid bla moh! i dont know wat she said.,.. but i know wat mama said! hehehe.. and secret! heheh

waaaaaaa......waaaaaaa...wat did she say??hmmm...cge na bi...i need to know...i badly need to...hehehe...
just wanna check up if ok lang...i cant turn back coz i was to shy to do so...yup, as u said aircon na but im sweating...hehehe...

hmmmp.. nope .
. cant tell... but its not so bad... heheh!